How is hibernation going?
For me, I have had passing moments of guilt over exercising my power of “No, thank you.” The guilt slides into moments of sadness. Then after a good nap, healthy snack or just a good cry, I feel at peace. But I don’t immediately recognize it as peace. First, it feels empty. Then I realize it’s also quieter. Then I can breathe. I feel my whole system decompress. That’s when I can put words to the spaciousness like peace, grounded, centered and at ease.
I mentioned to someone recently that I feel like I have forgotten something. I do the check in -looking at my to-do list and obligations. All immediate needs are met or satisfied. This moment everything is fine. Then I realize, I have forgotten stress. I have set aside the season’s demands, the historic necessities of ritual and social expectations. Phew. So that’s what this feels like. To be ok in my own space, and skin. In my own mind and being. That this moment is perfect all in itself.
You know what I discovered that follows saying, no? Yes. I begin to say Yes to me. The space where I can decompress and just be, opens up and gives my heart space to say yes! I begin choosing the things that I want to do. The events I want to attend. This decompressed spaciousness leads me to my passion, my heart centered choices.
This spaciousness allows me to give myself the things I need and also want! I can dream, play, sleep, eat, connect with people, browse stores, feel fabrics, listen to music – of the birds, the water or the music my heart desires. I can participate in the festivities of the season as I choose to.
Hibernation isn’t hiding. Although, sometimes hiding away is helpful and healing. Hibernation is slowing down to our own quiet pace. Allowing the rest and restoration that is natural. Just like the seasons show us.
As I decompressed I found that I do like some of the holiday traditions that I have historically participated in. I do find joy in giving. I do like to celebrate and honor the light in my life. The light that is often easier to see in the darkness.
Happy Hibernation season to you!

