I have wanted to write, to teach and share what I have learned through hard lived experiences, through my self- growth and training. And I write it, edit it and leave it on my desktop.
But I am going to push through all the self-doubt and noise and just begin. I am going to write to my younger self. I am also going to let her rage and cry on the page. I will clearly label those, don’t worry. You can always just move on and not read any of this.
I am not one for confrontation. And yet I am so sad and angry sometimes. How I am dismissed and talked to really hurts sometimes. Yet being angry, speaking out of anger has never worked, never really been safe for me. It doesn’t mend the chasm that is caused by their words or my words.
Yet people come to me for advice, for clarity and for words that help them navigate and carry on. That says to me that I have words worth writing and words worth listening to.
What I am hoping the site becomes is a place where some truths and experiences can be said along with some hope and playfulness. I have navigated through difficult, unequal power differential relationships. I have changed primary relationships while keeping dignity for those involved and maintaining or at least eventually having mutual respect. I value those qualities. I value kindness, respect and honesty. Hard to always maintain.
Anyway, there is a lot to talk about here. I am hoping to share resilience and playfulness while I am not going to shy away from difficult conversations. There will be some “how to’s”, or rather recommendations and how I did – type of information.
I am writing what to expect, but really, who knows. Let’s just see what happens.
Thanks for reading.